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Sunday, April 29, 2007

Those songs, they just drown me with memories.
I remember it as if it was just yesterday.
But in fact, it's been 365 long days.

Do you remember? Do you?
I bet it meant nothing to you, nothing at all.

F*ck i still hate you. You never knew you could leave me so deeply hurt, did you? I hate the sight of you. Seeing you makes anger swell so hard within me. Everything and anything that has got to do with you, it still makes me sick. You're still the big fat jerk you are. And i'd never forgive you for turning me into the broken person i am now. You never knew that you could make such drastic changes to someone else's life just like that, did you?

I thank you for teaching me a lesson.
A lesson that i'd never ever forget, for life.

And i am thoroughly ashamed with myself.
Ashamed at my foolishness.
Ashamed at my naivety.

Ashamed that i still believe there's still some goodness in you.

I promised a friend i wouldn't be upset about today. That it's just gonna be like any other day.

But today just feels different.
It reminded me of how much of a loser i am.
It reminded me of how things have never been right.
It reminded me of how much of a monster someone can be.

And yes, I still hate you badly.
I wished you were dead, you f*cking liar.

Whatever, just get lost.

xoxo,PEARLYN!
11:45 PM

Saturday, April 28, 2007

Okay, yesterday was OFFICIALLY the most RIDICULOUS day of my life.

Shaun, Raphael, Elaine and I were deciding where to go for lunch. We walked past Pizza Hut and this lady came up to us..

Lady: "Hey could you guys help me do a survey?"

All of us: "What survey?"

Lady: "Oh, just help us eat a pizza and fill out a survey form."

The boys: "Okay lah! Set lah. Got pizza to eat leh. Let's go!"

Elaine and I: "Uhhhhhh." *bites lip*

Then as the boys followed the lady into Pizza Hut, Elaine and I started laughing really really really really really really badly. WE WERE SO MALUUUUU! I swear i could've just died at that moment. I really didn't wanna go in! HAHAHA!

But in the end we still did. :D
Some cwss seniors were there too, so i didn't feel so bad.

(Sorry if the image quality is lousy, or if its too small.)

Well, i have to admit it. I LOVED the pizza. :D

I just love cheese alot. So that cheese fondue was just superb! When it goes on the menu, you guys should really go try no matter how much it costs. It would be SUPER WORTH IT! Besides, its such an original idea, give them some credit for that lah! Haha.

Anyway, at the end of the survey we each received a $5 Pizza Hut voucher. So we went to spend it straight away! Ordered 4 set meals (which had like soups and drinks and all that sort) and each of us only had to pay $2. Omg, i don't know whether that's considered a very good deal or just the result of a very very weird day. HAHA!

Anyway, i'm officially trying to lose weight.

I'M SO FREAKING FAT.

Well, it's just my legs.

THEY ARE SUPER FAT!

THE WAR HAS COMMENCED.

I AM DETERMINED TO HAVE LANKY LEGS INSTEAD OF THUNDER THIGHS.

Oh f*ck, i don't know how many million calories i have to burn.

DAMNIT!

Oh, my cousin is coming to my house to stay for the rest of the year starting from this Tuesday. (I have a strong feeling that i've mentioned about this before.)

So that means i have 3 more days to:

1. Fart at will. (OMG, I'M GONNA MISS DOING THAT ALOT! ><)

2. Scratch at will.

3. Sing horribly at will.

4. Make a nuisance/scream/shout/throw tantrums at will.

5. Do workouts before I sleep on my bed, at will.

No, i'm not dreading her arrival. In fact, i'm pretty happy that someone's coming over to our place to stay. My mum would give me more face this way, i guess. Haha! We'll see how it all goes, yeah? :D

Ahhhh, i wanna change my blog song again.

I think i'll change it to Hannah Montana's Best of Both Worlds!

(I can't believe JianHong watches that show too.)

I LOVE HANNAH MONTANA!

I love her songs too.

What's wrong with watching Disney Channel? I love The Suite Life of Zack and Cody, That's So Raven, Unfabulous (omg, my fave fave fave!) and Romeo! I still think these shows are super cool. Really! I'm not childish k. If you were me, you'd be hooked as well.

Ohwell!

I hate it when my dad starts getting agitated about soccer.

I think soccer is.. quite pointless.

HAHA! =X

Byyeeee!

Love you lovelies!

xoxo,PEARLYN!
10:03 PM

Sunday, April 22, 2007

I HATE BLOGGER.
BLOGGER SUCKS BIG TIME.
BLOGGER IS GETTING ON MY NERVES.

Ugh, whatever.
Their lousy server.
Tried posting three different posts (which took to hours to compose) for a million times already and nothing came up.
AND NOW I LOST ALL THREE POSTS. WONDERFUL.
WTF IS WRONG WITH THEM?!
IF THIS STUPID POST MANAGES TO BE PUBLISHED, THEN I AM VERY IMPRESSED.

NO, IT SHOULD BE "WTF IS WRONG WITH MYSELF".

WTF IS WRONG WITH EVERYTHING, EVERYONE?!
WTF IS WRONG WITH THIS WORLD.
WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF.

DON'T FUCKING COME TO MY FACE AND SAY THAT I

HAVE A FUCKING ATTITUDE/AM HAVING PMS/AM SELFISH/AM WEAK/AM A LOSER /THINK ONLY ABOUT MYSELF.

CAUSE I DON'T FUCKING CARE.

DON'T FUCKING CARE IF I'M A FAILURE, IF I GET INTO NOTHING BUT TROUBLE, IF I FUCKING HATE MYSELF.

GO ON, SAY I'M EMO, SAY I ASKING FOR SYMPATHY, SAY I'M AN ATTENTION SEEKER, SAY I'M AN UNCOUTH PERSON, SAY THAT I'M A PROBLEMATIC KID.

CAUSE I KNOW DEEP DOWN THAT I'M JUST TRYING TO HARD TO BE THE PERSON I WANNA BE.

TRYING TOO HARD TO MAKE THE WORLD A PLACE I WOULD LOVE TO LIVE IN.
TRYING TOO HARD TO MAKE THE PEOPLE AROUND ME ACT THE WAY I WANT THEM TO BE.
TRYING TOO HARD TO KEEP MY LIFE UNDER CONTROL.

TRYING TOO HARD TO MAKE EVERYTHING PERFECT.

I did, i really did.

THIS IS FUCKING PATHETIC.

xoxo,PEARLYN!
1:47 PM

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

What they say is true! Your emotions affect your health, and it's showing on my skin. Ugh, having this mini acne breakout thingy. Well, i consider it one! It's just that you can't see it, cause my fringe's hidden it. And my dark circles are.. well uhm, DARK! Haha. It just makes me look awful.

I know i know, vanity.
Yes, i am vain. So what? Are you not vain as well? Do you not comb your hair after you bathe? Do you not look in the mirror to tidy your hair? Do you not try to dress up in nice clothes? Do you, or do you not? Maybe i'm just OVERLY vain, thats all. No harm what. Ha!

This is one of the rare days (especially just a few weeks before my MYEs) that i don't have any homework! Came home and used to com for like all this while. But my eyes are starting to feel heavy already.

Very sad that i had to miss choir today! Argghhh, had to go to check my spine again. Well, turns out that i'm still fine. So thank God! But the x-ray is really scary-looking. I mean, my spine looks like a snake. I didn't even dare to glance at it. I just kept my vision away from the x-ray film. It was just.. horrible.

Ahhhhhhhhhh!
I can't wait for Dione's birthday! Actually i'm starting to feel more excited about her birthday than SYF! I really can't wait for the 20th of April! It's like.. joy day! So gonna be man. :D 21st would be toooooooo! Whoooopeee.

Uhm, for those who keep coming up to me and asking if i'm okay,
I'm okay.
I'm a strong girl, i hope.

Actually, things are much better for me than it was in the past. I have much more freedom now. And actually, i am much happier. I can do whatever i want now. I don't have to comprimise for someone else anymore. I no longer have to swallow pique everyday anymore. In a thousand different ways, i'm a better person now.

But not good enough still.

Ohwell, off to dreamland!
Take care lovelies! :D

xoxo,PEARLYN!
10:04 PM

Saturday, April 07, 2007

You crushed me when i thought i was already broken, just when i started to feel like i really really really liked you all over again.

Thanks sweetheart.
Thanks for making me feel this way.

Fucking retard.
This is so dumb.
You're not the complete loser, I AM.
You happy now?

No, actually i think you're the loser.

xoxo,PEARLYN!
8:56 PM

Thursday, April 05, 2007

I had fun at x-country today!

It was more fun cheering for people than running the race actually! :D

But i'm kinda proud of myself that i didnt come in the last few.

Though i'm not in the top 40(which would be rather impossible for someone of my physique), i guess i'm kinda contented being 50 odd.

AND LIUHAO DID US PROUD! :D

Yayyyyyy!

Zhong guo fei mao tui!!!

WO MEN AI NI! <3!>

He came in after "zjien"(this is how Mr.Vilau pronounces it!) hong, being second! His running shoes are damn light btw, probably not any heavier than a stack of worksheets. And I heard that Mr.Vilau used to run him down because he didn't go for training and thought he was lousy and all. BUT HA! LOOK! He's done it. :D

And the girls from 2/1 were really great! Quite a few of them got into top 30! So proud of you girls! I guess 2/1 kinda bonded even more today, right? We were cheering like mad! And Celestine looked so cute when she went up to collect her prize. Awww.

Thanks to KeQing, i get to be chairman for 10 mins today! And it's really really really fun! Taking attendance, running around and stuff. Haha!

Hmmm, after x-country we had..

I KNOW I KNOW! MADE IN HEAVEN, RIGHT?

Even my daddy loves it!

Who knew x-country would end off on such a tasty note?!

I wanna work for Ben&Jerry's when i grow up! :D

Oh btw, i'm going to Batam for a short vacation starting from tmr to saturday.

I know, two days one night stay. Pointless, right?

I guess its gonna be a short getaway for me from the many things that are happening to me here in Singapore. A lil shopping here, a lil tanning on the beach and hopefully i'd be spankin' new when i return. ><

Anyway, the song you're hearing to right now.. It's "Candyman" by Christina Aguilera. I was getting sick of "Girlfriend" by Avril Lavigne already. Fickle minded huh. Anyway, i love the song cause it's so alive! Makes me wanna dance, or do the lindyhop!

Ohwell, before i go lemmi show you a pic of calculators. HAHA!

Me and Karthik's! I know, random huh.

BYEBYE! LOVES! <3!

xoxo,PEARLYN!
8:11 PM

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

"So you're in a cranky sarcastic mood?"

Right, Keith.
Haha, those are the exact words man.

Dang, x-country tmr.
If imma finish it, i'd finish it for Mr Poh!
Omg, i can't believe he's leaving so fast!
2/1 was damned enthu for PE today!
I guess everyone wanted Mr Poh to have an enjoyable lesson today, since it was his last.
We'd miss you Mr Poh!
And your stupid lame jokes.
:D

Something funny happened just now! LiuHao called me up using his house phone (so i didn't recognise it). And he went..

LiuHao: "Da Jie!" (big sister)
Me: "Who are you?!"
LiuHao: "Hei she hui lao da!" (secret society leader)
Me: "Dots, who are you. LiuHao isit. -.-"
LiuHao: "NO! Hei she hui lao da!"
Me: "Lol, what you want."
LiuHao: "Tmr how you going Turf City?!"
Me: "My daddy send me there."
LiuHao: "CHICKEN MCNUGGETTTT!!!"

And he just slammed down the phone!
HAHAHAHA! Omfg, i think thats kinda funny.

Byebye, getting late already!
Wish me good luck for tmr's run! :D

xoxo,PEARLYN!
10:47 PM

Sunday, April 01, 2007

I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE.

I feel like my world's falling apart.
I really don't want it to be this way.
I don't wish to wake up tmr morning.

xoxo,PEARLYN!
11:28 PM

FINALLY! I've completed the post. Spent HOURS trying to edit all the pics okay. Had so many that i wanted to show, so i reckon it'd be a better idea to mash several of them into one image so that i won't have too many to upload later.

So yeah, i'm kinda poofed out.

The pictures are all pretty explanatory! They're in no paticular order. I just dumped them all here.

Click on the pictures to view them at full size, i know some of them are pretty small but thats the way blogger makes it look.

Let's gogogo! :D

The cherry blossoms there were beautiful! Because it was spring, so here were many blooming flowers around in all sorts of colours! Definately a gorgeous sight! :D

My foster family brought me to the zoo on the second day of the three day two night homestay. And i sat on a camel for the first time! But heck in was so damn difficult to get on it, i sprained my butt cheek. DAMNIT!

Oh and this is my foster family! They were very very nice to me. I get treated like a princess! I didn't manage to get a picture with the dad cause he's a colonel in the military, so yeah he has to go out of the state in order to get to work, so he only comes home twice a month.

One of the lessons in the school was Art! And we did papercutting. Probably my favourite! Got taught how to cut the "double happiness" chinese character out of red coloured paper. It's actually very very very simple! :D

The food there was great. I've never eaten so so well for twelve days straight. Buffet breakfast every morn, restaurant meals every lunch and dinner. Even the canteen food that the school provided is way tasty! But we seemed to be eating this Nanjing delicacy called "Salted Water Duck" (in direct translation from chinese), and we got sick of it! Oh and i got to eat some things that i'll never get/never dared to eat in my life. Like the clotted duck's blood, the half-developed chicken egg (don't worry, it's human engineered so there's no way a chick can be fully developed and hatched) and i tried snails (escargots or however you spell it?) and they taste like chicken actually. Haha! :D

Okay, random. Stupid Andrew was interrupting my cam-whoring session. Lol.

The school was freaking small, but had over a thousand students! Classrooms were small, but had about 50 students in a class. Pretty amazing how those china kids study. They're very smart you know! Oh and yeah, the last two pictures below are their toilets. I know lah, Singaporean kiasu go take picture right? But really, i find it so interesting. I heard the boys' toilet was worse. *shrugs*

Oh, some of the places we went. :D

On the last day there was this farewell concert. And we did a performance! Look at our boys' costume. Damn funny! They're supposed to dress like malays and indians. Oh and the China school's martial arts team is really neat!

OKAY, START LOL-ING AWAY. Snapped pictures of people's passports. Some of them look super funny!

Made many new friends during this trip, bonded more with the ones i already had. I love the Nanjing trip so much man! I bet everyone did. On the last day, we were all so reluctant to leave!

Some funny pictures, CLICK TO ENLARGE! :D

That's a video i took of Brandon during the farewell dinner on the last night. What's he doing? Go figure. No prizes for the correct answer!

Oh and don't worry, i had his permission to put this up. Thanks Brandon! :D

Satisfied now? I finally updated huh.

Really, damn busy these days. Too many problems to handle! *sigh*

XOXO, Pearlyn!

(Thanks Charmaine for helping me to post!)

xoxo,PEARLYN!
7:17 PM